Friday, June 29, 2007

从前,现在

到了这个时候,我不能不承认,我害怕孤单,害怕寂寞,害怕被朋友遗弃....
我一直都这样告诉自己,一个人又不会死,干嘛无端端要找个人来陪???
现在我懂了,我一直都在违背良心欺骗我自己,逃避现实。

现在我才明白,我真的错过了许多幸福,一次又一次伤了别人,然后封闭自己。
我一直都劝告别人不要只活在自己的世界,要摊开自己的心胸让别人理解,
但现在我才发现到,原来一直都活在自己世界的是我,封闭自己的感情的是我。
有口说别人的我,原来没有口说自己。

一直以来都告诉朋友,遇到了属于自己的幸福就不要错过,机会不一定会重来的。
但原来是我一直以来都错过自己的幸福,欺骗自己说,让机会流走。
搞到最后,痛苦的士自己,伤心的时自己,欺骗的也是自己。

原来错过了的爱会是那么痛苦,错过的人会离自己那么远,无法触及的距离。
这些都只能怪罪于自己,怪自己的无能,怪自己的胆小,怪自己的笨和傻。
我总是这样,错过了才懂得珍惜,但全部都会来得太迟。
消失的幸福,剩下后悔的我。

机会不会重来,并不是每个人都会回头望,看看自己走过的一路上到底错过什么,得到什么。
过去的种种都只能成为回忆,而失落的自己只能失落在回忆中,迷了路,找补到方向。
幸福不难找,错过了不一定会再有。

错过了幸福的人,能做的就只有在茫茫人海中再次寻找属于自己的幸福。
撞撞跌跌,搞得自己伤痕累累,找不到时就只能带着失望和感叹回家。
责怪自己的无能,责怪自己的愚笨,责怪自己的冷酷。

在最后奉劝各位,
找到的自己的幸福就不要让它走,既然牵了手,那么就不要那么轻易说分手。
还未找到自己的幸福的,请你把握自己,千万别让自己的幸福流走,机会错过就不一定再有。
祝福各位,希望你们能和自己的幸福完成这段美丽的人生。

Thursday, June 28, 2007

一颗心

有时候人是控制不到自己想念人的一颗心,总是徘徊在孤单的黑暗中成长。
没有经验的也总会在寂寞中长大,空虚的心总得让邻一颗心来填满的。
据说人的灵魂就只有半颗心,而另一半就是自己的伴侣来补充。
每个人的心中都有一个空洞,而那个空洞自己怎么补也补补上,唯有真正懂得怎么修补的人才修得好。

活在这个世界上是为了什么?追求什么?这只有不断的向前,不断的继续。
人生只有不断的路途,永远都走不完,一直到死亡的那一刻。
人会怕老,种种因素。
怕朋友比自己先上路,怕家人比自己先离开。
怕自己被家人遗弃,怕自己被世人淘汰。

因而人也怕死。
怕朋友,家人为自己伤心,怕他们为自己掉泪。人最不想看到的就是别人为自己掉眼泪。
怕自己死时会不会痛苦,怕死后会是怎样,上天堂?还是下地狱?

人因为太爱自由,但又害怕孤单。
所以即使想在感情上又碰撞,但又不知道要怎样让别人进入自己的世界。
一直反锁自己在自己的世界里,到头来矛矛盾盾,一无所有。

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

After The Bloggers Gathering

Yeah~~~ yesterday i found one little cute news in The Star, those are the pics~


KennySia was so famous, we are all his fans~ but he is quite nice person[my feel]
i snaps those pics from The Star when i buy bangla cigars for my dad.

On the way back, me and my frenz went to Penang road eat Chendol~

Many customers lehz, made me hav to wait so long juz to get 2bowl of chendol and 6 packets,
but the few indian workers there work fast, got nice food den i juz wait lahz~

Okiez~ back to today~ early in the morning woke up, wat the, today woke so early lahz, 8something >.<
usually wake up at 9-10a.m. My dad asked me to go early cause he wanna cut hair,
But gosh! when i reach there, he juz back from his hair cut, faint =.="
So i juz stay there and help him, so bored lahz today bo laku one, me sit until sienz~ zzz~
Summore time pass slow, i looks at the clock from 12pm until 1pm, den about 1something i told him i go back d.

When i reached home,
suddenly received one call from neighbour and told me tat our frenz condition is getting worse in GMC[Glenegles Medical Center]
So i went there with him, but the nurses dun let us visit him cause he is not stable.
His family members told us tat, the doctor said he juz hav to pass today, den tomolo he will be ok,
If unluckily he kenot pass today, den.... u noe lahz.... haiz.....
Lets pray for him, hope tat he will be ok and recover soon.

This is my frenz's advice before he is in danger condition, he told us not to hav too much traditional herbs,
Although traditional herbs is nice for our bodies, but if we take too much, it will become poisonious.
so dun take too much traditional herbs and often, it is dangerous.

At nite, i went to Batu Ferringhi there with my cousin, her husband, and my sis.
There was a lot of foreigner and many stalls, but all pirates stuffs, >.<
my sis and cousin choosed some pirates DVD, poor family no money to buy original, lolz
tis is funny when we are on the way back, my cousin quarrel with her husband,
They doesnt sounds like fighting but fooling each other, me and my sis laugh until stomach ache and reached home.
So this is my 2days blog, enjoy~ and leave some comments if u willing to.
^^

And before i leave, dedicate this song to all of u,
Crystal Plane by Zhang Yao.


And some pictures tat i took juz now evening, sun set, behind my house~

Sunday, June 24, 2007

What Is Love?

These few days, i've tried to ask myself, wat is love in my opinion,
I thought tat i will noe, as i experience in relationship before,
but i cant get any answer of my own question, weird isnt it?
So i publish tis in my msn,
Wat is love? who attached and tell me how is the feel?
where is the love? how is the feel? i forgot about it.
So some of my frens noticed about it and answered me.
Here 5 of the answers.
1st, Love is blind, we will become stupid when we fall for it.
2nd, Love is a point where your heart finds it's meeting point and significant to another heart who has the same feelings
3rd, Love treat u nice while it needs u and dump u after used u, so love = enemy
4th, Love is an abnormal feeling for someone that will make you insane.
5th, Love is potion, it cures ur loliness and ur boredom.

I got more answer, but most of them answered me, they dono wat is love, or most of their answer is, the 1st answer.
Tis is my conclusion,
Love is a feeling which occurs from one to each other.
Love will hurt u, comfort u, and even betray u when ur time is up.
Love can makes u step on every trap like an stupid idiot.
Last, Love is something tat no one can avoid from it.

Here is one old songs for u all~
Where Is The Love - Black Eyed Peas [The version that i like]


And some pictures of the sky tat i took tis evening.


Dun forget, post me some comments about love too ya,
^^

Saturday, June 23, 2007

Successful Bloggers Gathering

Yah! CedricAng u did it! i like it! and i love it so much!!!!
Tis is a succesful and a enjoyful bloggers gathering!!!! guess everyone like it very much, it is fun there.
so tis is juz a part of the pics tat i got, i will try to share some pics with u all when i got it.
i learned some skills, upload pictures with these type of cute thingy, lolz.


Cool Slideshows!

Wow!!!! we looks cool rite? lolz, thx cedric for organizing tis gathering,
it is nice and fun, and thx for all the sponsors.
Tis would be mine unforgetable memories.
^^

A Day With Full Of Plans

Lets start blog about enjoyful today.
At 1st, errr.... woke up, blah blah blah~ ALL EXCEPTED
After prepared myself, den i went to Gurney Plaza~
When i am walking up with elevators, suddenly i heard some alarm sounds from everywhere.
Then i reached 4th floor, the destination of bloggers gathering is there.
But i saw many doors are closing, den i've nervous, i only left about 15minutes b4 the gathering start!!!!!
den i run down to the 3rd floor and went up with another stairs.
So i reached Theater, the hair saloon, my fren is working there, so i asked her to style my hair for me, ><
She took me around 10minutes, den everything is done!
Den i met with with Criz, my blog senior, who guide me alot, lolz.
So we went in to Foodloft together, i will talk about it later.
So i left earlier, around 2something.
Den i hav lunch with my friends, Allan and Edwynn.
After the lunch, they fetch me to Queensbay Mall, we went to skating, and i saw alot of my old friends there.
after the skating, my leg now is DAMN pain!!!!!!!
We went back at 7something, and i got scold by families when i reached home, =.="
after tat, went to pray with my mom in a temple celebration,
it is many prayers there, and smoke surrounding and make me cries.T_T
Tis is the picture of that temple, quite alot of prayers there.

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

追求

人生几何???
活着是为了什么???
追求什么???
说说我的吧,以前我也曾经是体重百斤的肥佬,人见人怕。
为了什么我从去年变了???
我减肥,我厌食,我改变自己。
而我追求的又是什么???
很可笑,我自己并不知道,也搞得完全没头绪。
我活着是为了什么???我也搞得不大懂。
但我时常告诉那些迷失自我的人,人就是为自己而活。
但自己遇见这样的问题时,给自己的答案总解不到结。
谁能替我解答,人活着是为了什么?????
追求更高的阶级又是为了什么?????

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

端午节快乐

吃了棕子吗????? 端午节咧.....
昨晚参加了神诞游行,很热闹哦~ 而且一路上可见许多摊口在卖棕子。
很奇怪,多数的节日我都会随着庆典享受美食,但就是中秋节和端午节,月饼和棕子我是不喜欢吃的。
月饼太粘嘴巴,不是很喜欢粘粘的食物。
棕子太油腻,吃了我会泻肚子,而且也很粘。
下着暴风雨啊!!!!屋顶都快飞掉了!!!!!
早上被妈妈骗了,说什么十二点把鸡蛋直立在地上鸡蛋不会倒下来。
还有就是用十二点的水来洗脸,脸会很滑,这个还不知道结果,可能咧???
刚才见红了就是,被割了一刀在拇指,流血了,但不会痛,没关系,>.<
还有三天就是部落客的集会了,好期待哦!!!!到时候应该怎么样呢???
紧张!!!!紧张!!!!应该会很刺激吧???
从KL回来也有一阵子了,但好想念那边的朋友哦... T_T
还有那边的饼干!!!!!你们有来时记得帮我买一些咧....
以下是一些神诞庆典的照片,还有鸡蛋和我被割伤的照片。






Sunday, June 10, 2007

我的朋友们

献给大家一首歌曲,但上传不到,所以麻烦各位去网站听吧。

致我的朋友们:
需要我时,尽量找我帮忙吧,帮得上的,我会不遗余力帮到底。
伤心时,不妨让我陪你渡过不开心的日子。
开心时,不管在哪里都好,要记得我在后头祝福你。
人生短短,我不想错过身边的每一位朋友。
虽然生活上是一个人,但身边的都是多得你们的陪伴,
我从寂寞孤单中走了出来,迎向开心的未来路途。
有了你们的扶持,就算有多辛苦的路我都会走下去。
少了你们的指点,我就像一只毫无方向的迷路羊。
无论何时何地,我永远会记得你们。
即使我忘了,但如果见了面不妨彼此打个招呼,提醒我也好啊。
我的朋友们,我从我认识你们的那天起,我就开始珍惜你们。
从我当你是朋友开始,我就尽心尽力做好一个朋友的本份。
即使想认识或是和我做朋友的也好,很高兴认识你,我的朋友,^^

Love Is Beautiful


这首歌曲是朋友介绍的,我上网到处查过,但都找不到。
Love Is Beautiful,连歌词也找不到,但真的好好听哦。
如果可以有一个人让我对着你唱,那该有多浪漫啊?但是,有吗???
一切都在计划中,如果没有出差错的话,那么星期一就会启程往KL出发了。
将会停留在那边几天,去光临几间不同的学院,然后再比较做参考。
最近的心又有许些波动了,当然是因为无聊的闲言闲语啦~
有时候真的很难做决定,脑里尽是自己的意见在争吵打架。
有时候真的是懒得去想,但还是得想,这次我不能再拖下去了。
这是我的未来,这是我的青春,我不烦那由谁来烦???
究竟我是不是真的应该离乡背井到外地升学呢?
还是依然得留在这个充满风波,少了欢笑的家乡升学呢?
我一直在问自己,脑筋在打转,但依然找不到理想的答案。
我希望大家给一点意见,真的很拜托,我不想再次迷失自己了。
有时候真的想这一生一世无忧无虑,自由自在那该有多好?
但梦还是想想就好,做人还是好好面对现实吧。
大家记得给留言哦,也可以顺便给点评语那首歌曲。
i need some advice from every visitor,
do u think tat, i shud stay at hometown and study here?
or i shud leave tis place and try to live alone out there and study there?
maybe it is hard, but i already ready to face tis.
i need some advice, plz comments, i will be thx alot.
^^

Wednesday, June 6, 2007

熊猫眼

我什么都没有,有的是熊猫眼两颗。
昨晚我和姐姐真的被人和狗玩得很惨,搞得一整晚睡不好。
昨晚就一整晚都在打雷,而我的宝贝好怕不怕,偏怕打雷。
爬上窗口,差点从二楼跌下去,幸好姐姐醒的早,否则我今天是收尸了。
搞到我也被吵醒了,然后就把它绑在床边的小桌。
小桌上有我和姐姐的那些手机和眼镜,到最后全部都落到地上了。
宝贝真调皮,竟然那么忍心把我们的手机和眼镜都扫到地上。=.=
结果我们两个被它搞得一整晚都没睡好。
除了宝贝呢,刚才说的人就是一位疯人。
别以为我是在开玩笑,他真的是疯人,受刺激而疯掉的那种。
一整晚在楼下吵吵闹闹,自己和自己聊天;
要不然就说自己是什么天公的儿子啦,要不然时不时就喊出爆炸声。
一整晚被他和宝贝这样吵,结果早上我和姐姐都张了熊猫眼。
口爱一族,炸到 =.=
今天本来是懒得上传歌曲的,但想想,这样的部落格会闷。
上来一首S.H.E的找不到吧。

下面加几张扮可爱的宝贝2照片~


是他自己带上去的,还带微笑让我拍照,真的傻得可爱。

Monday, June 4, 2007

纸飞机


带一首旧歌给大家,那就是很可爱的纸飞机。
相信大家都有被人放飞机过吧???而那种感觉会蛮难受的吧???
我呢,平时就习惯了,可是今天呢,就来了一辆大飞机。
其实上次就有一位爸爸的朋友放了一次,本来说去怡保游玩,但最后取消了。
这一次呢,换来了更大的一辆。
计划本来是星期三会启程去KL一趟的,但现在却说车满,
而我呢?被排挤了,理所当然的,说得没错吧?
更不用说的,一大堆的计划,再次泡汤,随风飘走了。
连续四天了,星期六到现在,不断被人放飞机。
放人飞机很好玩吗??? 既然约了人那就别失约啊。
既然那么忙,那么就别答应人家任何约会啊???
约了人才失约,是最惹人厌恶的臭家伙。
我并没指名点性,别说我是在指谁。
教大家一种蛮省钱,但有少许破坏资源的发泄方法。
把你所有的不满,全部都写在一张纸上面,
过后就把纸折成飞机,过后就把飞机拿去高出飞吧。
把所有的不满都放飞掉,把所有的烦恼都丢出去吧。
童年回忆里,应该没有一个人是没有玩过纸飞机吧???
但随着时代进步,纸飞机也会渐渐被遗忘的。
人总是贪新忘旧,我自己也承认,我有时也会。
但是,有谁会想过,被遗忘的人,被遗忘的东西,会有多大的失落感?
必要时,回过头去看看,自己走过的路途中,有谁被遗忘,有什么被遗漏。
如果觉得应该去珍惜的,那么就去珍惜吧。
如果真的不值得回头看的,那就干脆忘了吧。
可能会给予伤害,但有些伤害还是在所难免的。

Sunday, June 3, 2007

The Orient's Voice


orientvoice

The Orient's Voice




this is a blogger's meeting for all the bloggers.
who wish to attend muz sign up themselves in tat website.
http://www.orientsvoice.project010.net
every blogger is welcome~
my friend, Cedric Ang is the organizer.
Wat we hav to do is juz attend the meeting at the FoodLoft of Gurney Plaza Penang.
u can dress up as how u like, no matter with banana leaves, or animals's skin, blah blah blah~
the meeting will be 3hours, but we can stay longer, the organizer will stay back and hang with us~
who wish to get more detail shud go for Cedric's blog,
plz take a view at tis blog, http://www.cedricang.com/the-orients-voice/

Saturday, June 2, 2007

远走高飞

这几天都在为升学的事情奔波劳碌,连休息的时间也会烦。
离乡背井并不是简单的事,更何况是去读书???
幸运的话,可能我会顺顺利利的完成学业,达成目标。
但不幸的话,可能在外头饿死街头,一事无成。
昨天真的很愤怒,只是询问爸爸朋友一些相关的事物,
但竟然被她反对,反过来告诉我说不必离乡背井,在原地升学就好。
如果她那么一说我就会改变主义,那么我从新打算的计划不是又要破碎?
我曾经迷失自我一次了,我不想同样的事情发生两次,
我对自己说,这次无论如何,我都要撑到底。
可是这几天内,我真的了解到,升学并不是那么简单的事,
钱就成为了其中的最大问题。
今天去领取学费表格时,本来心情不错的我顿时失落了。
学费竟然会那么贵,我不知道该怎么办。
暂时还不敢告诉爸爸,但也是迟早的事,总该让他知道的。
有时候会很觉得,我真的应该继续升学吗???
关于我升学的事,家人都很赞成,
但反而换来许多外人的反对,所以闲言闲语是免不了的。
但我真的希望别像上次那样让我再次迷失自己。
这几天都在为升学的事情奔波劳碌,连休息的时间也会烦。
离乡背井并不是简单的事,更何况是去读书???
幸运的话,可能我会顺顺利利的完成学业,达成目标。
但不幸的话,可能在外头饿死街头,一事无成。
昨天真的很愤怒,只是询问爸爸朋友一些相关的事物,
但竟然被她反对,反过来告诉我说不必离乡背井,在原地升学就好。
如果她那么一说我就会改变主义,那么我从新打算的计划不是又要破碎?
我曾经迷失自我一次了,我不想同样的事情发生两次,
我对自己说,这次无论如何,我都要撑到底。
可是这几天内,我真的了解到,升学并不是那么简单的事,
钱就成为了其中的最大问题。
今天去领取学费表格时,本来心情不错的我顿时失落了。
学费竟然会那么贵,我不知道该怎么办。
暂时还不敢告诉爸爸,但也是迟早的事,总该让他知道的。
有时候会很觉得,我真的应该继续升学吗???
关于我升学的事,家人都很赞成,
但反而换来许多外人的反对,所以闲言闲语是免不了的。
但我真的希望别像上次那样让我再次迷失自己。
希望这回的目标能达成吧,因为企业管理也并不是我真正喜欢的,
所以我会更加努力,做到最好。